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Friday, June 19, 2009

lunch time

Ugh, Fibro Crash

I knew that I was due to crash (although I was hoping I wouldn’t) after a couple weeks of steady appointments and driving all over the city, and then Coffee Fest…where we only spent maybe two hours.  I thought things were going kind of badly when we got home on Sunday, but then we still had to get Kevin/Cody to the airport on Monday.  And then, when we had to have Eli put to sleep on Tuesday…that really capped it all off.  I’ve pretty much slept almost straight through since then, waking up only to feed the dogs and get the dogs out.  I had two appointments yesterday that I had to bail on, because I just couldn’t fathom being able to get out of bed, shower, and drive to both appointments.  My body just said “no”, and my head had no choice in the matter.  I’d been feeling kind of decent, for me lately, the past couple of weeks, so I’d hoped it would continue.  It did not.  I can’t even blame it just on the stress of losing Eli, although that was really, really awful…and still is.  (I wish Dante understood English, so we could tell him what happened to Eli - he seems so sad and confused) It was just too much, too close together, and too much driving - all in all, just too much.  If we get kicked out of our house, I hope I’m able to get up out of bed.